some days i just don't feel beautiful.
my hair doesn't turn out right
new red bumps keep appearing
the jeans are a little snugger
and best compliment of the day is "nice....sweatshirt."
i realize that all of those things are really superficial, but how can they not cross my mind when i'm constantly surrounded by it?
determination is key. confidence is key.
but sometimes, all i want is for someone to delight in me.
faith is key. perseverance is key.
the king is enthralled by your beauty
honor him
for he is your lord
psalm 45:11
i let myself get blinded by shallow desires and thinking i don't fit perfectly in this perfect little description of "beautiful" that i've come up with. that being said, i don't think i honored jesus with my thoughts today. they were all about my faults. my thoughts should be full of praise that despite my mess, the King is enthralled with me. This perfect, holy One takes delight in little spotted me. He didn't have to do that. i should crave that kind of affection.
You are holy
You are mighty
You are worthy
You are beauty.
Audrey! So much of the stuff you say/articulate sticks with me. "I don't think I honored Jesus with my thoughts today. They were all about my faults." I know this feeling of thoughts being so focused on self, yet articulating the POTENTIAL FOR OUR THOUGHTS TO PRAISE GOD give me new motivation. Thanks, and I'll see you tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteP.S. You are freaking beautiful! The person forgot to say the obvious, and instead commented on your sweatshirt, which is apparently really cool too? :)
ReplyDeleteEmily, I am so glad we know each other, you are good for my heart. Looking forward to tomorrow!!! :)
ReplyDeleteAudrey, your writing touches me. You have a great voice--and i do not mean just in singing.
ReplyDeletethanks mom that means a lot coming from you. Maybe I accidentally kept myself logged on to your computer? love and miss you!
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